I initially blogged this in 2017. I am currently taking time to self reflect on everything I have ever written and following it up in 2020. It is nice to see how far you have come because it helps you navigate where you want to go. A lot of people self reflect, but they reflect at the surface. Many people claim to reflect, but they do not take the necessary actions to make the needed changes to progress in their life. I sympathize with them because it is not easy admitting to all your flaws, accepting when you are wrong and acknowledging that you have so many areas that need improvement in your life.
Facing the Uniqueness of Me
There came a point in my life where a light bulb went off inside my head and I suddenly began to see myself for who I truly am and not who I have pretended to be. No one really wants to admit to themselves that they haven’t always been the most likeable person, least of all a person like me who is very set in her ways. Yet, it was time for me to grow; I mean really grow and evolve so much more than I ever have in the past.
I really like this Mara that everyone is witnessing these days. I fall in love with her more and more everyday. I am so protective of this version of myself , that any type of compromise is viewed as a detriment and threat.
Why do I like her so much? Because she is calmer, more secure, more focused and more selfless. She doesn’t mind sharing her big heart with others. She stopped being a braggart and pompous ass and actually just started enjoying her life more quietly. She listens more than she speaks and she empathizes more than she judges.
She has no qualms about admitting her faults and working to correct them. She finally realizes that she creates her own happiness; although it is still a struggle to keep this at play. This Mara knows when to take a step back, analyze, reassess and then proceed with caution (the former Mara rushed into everything). She is working on being more of a champion for herself as opposed to her own worst critic.
There is so much more but I think you get the just of it. I am just an all around better person. I see so much beauty in myself and in my life. When I initially wrote this, I felt like I was still a butterfly emerging from its cocoon. Well, I have emerged and I am beautiful butterfly who has found her wings and happily soaring to new heights. The point is I accept the Uniqueness of Me.
Until next time,