Happy Monday, Prosers! Yesterday, I celebrated my 43rd birthday. As per my usual tradition, I want to share with you the growth I have achieved over this past year. 43 finds me in very unfamiliar territory, but it is a territory full of self awareness, true confidence and most importantly, absolute peace of mind.
I love to share my journey with others in the hope someone will stumble across my writing and be inspired enough to press on despite any adversary they may be facing at the time. If you have read my poetic testimonial, The Journey to Mara Prose, you are well aware of the many battles I have faced with trauma bonds, depression and anxiety. Finally, at the age of 43 I have not only found my voice, but also have found my identity, my purpose and self love. My journey is far from complete, but who I am now is exactly who I have been working towards for the past three years. So let’s begin with some of the areas that I witnessed the most growth.
This past year has been a wonderful year of growth in my relationship with my daughter. There was a period of time where she was very angry with me about my divorce from her father a few years back, and unfortunately, I did a poor job in validating her feelings and nursing her through it. I have always wanted us to be thick as thieves, and we finally are at that point. We may still butt heads, bicker and get on one another’s nerves, but it is only because we are so alike; and that is scary LOL! With her leaving for college this Fall, I am cherishing every moment with her, and I finally feel confident that I am setting the appropriate examples for her to become successful at life. Special shout out to my baby boy Xavier Floyd, where it goes without saying that there will always be a deep connection and unbreakable bond between us. I simply Thank God for the blessing of them.
What initially started as a journey to simply find more love for myself, has turned into mastering the ability to find love for everyone. The past three years, I have been bitter, afraid and self defeating at times. I have been closed off and intolerant, afraid to get too close to anyone. But in the past year, I have been awarded the art of discernment. I know when to let someone in, and when to keep my distance. I work to lead by example in all areas of my life so that others will find their own self love. I am not talking about romantic relationships, I am speaking on all my interpersonal relationships. I now understand that there will be times that people I adore will inadvertently hurt me, or maybe even purposely hurt me. But with the self loving I provide myself on a daily basis, I know not to take these instances too personally. You never know the battles someone else is facing, and it is best to always try your best to handle everyone with care. It is true that you receive what you put out into the world, so I choose to be loving, empathetic and caring to most, just as I would want them to exert those same qualities towards me.
One of my more recent revelations to self, is the fact that I have been emotionally immature for a good portion of my life. This immaturity has caused me a lot of pain, strife, guilt and condemnation. I recently told someone I love deeply that when you know better, you do better, but you cannot do better until you know better. This will be a controversial statement and will offend some, but to face yourself is courage and to avoid it is cowardice. Too bad the world is full of many cowards. It is hard and painful realizing that most of the time you are your own worst enemy, but at the same time, it is the most freeing and wonderful release to accept that knowledge. I exhaled for the first time this year, and finally realize exactly what Terry McMillan was stating in her book “Waiting to Exhale.” I truly believe I have been waiting to exhale for the past ten years of my life. From this revelation, I now keep certain sermons and life coaching videos on repeat daily and have made them a lifestyle change. I want to continue to grow, mature and form an even deeper connection with God, because He is my one true father and knows what is best for me and will continue to guide me towards being the best version of me. If you take away nothing else from this blog post, please take away the fact that working daily on your emotional maturity is paramount to your life.
I realize for the past year, I have been praying away the wrong strongholds. While my prayers were primarily focused on strongholds towards a person, God revealed to me recently that the strongholds that I should be praying away were all centered around me. Selfishness, tunnel vision, pride, envy and a strong fear of missing out were actually the strongholds that I should have been praying away. I should have been praying away the constant need for validation, and I should have been praying away anything that opposed my being authentic not only with others, but mostly with myself. At 43, the only stronghold I need is one with God. It is important to cast away all negative strongholds, because just as Joyce Meyer’s states “where the mind goes, the flesh follows.” You need to be controlled by the desires of the spirit and not the flesh. Believe me, life is so much easier, happier and carefree when you think the right things on purpose and practice self discipline in all matters of the mind.
There is a lot more growth I would love to share with you, but that will now be done via The Mara Prose Podcast – Prosey’s Corner, found on Spotify and iHeartRadio. Nicky and I will not only interview talented individuals, we will have individual discussions among ourselves on various topics and I will also have several solo shows where I expound upon and share how I continue to grow, mature and seek out my purpose.
In regards to book 2 of The Davenports, we are simply waiting for the links to go live on Amazon and Barnes and Noble. In the meantime, be sure to visit Barnes & Noble.com or Amazon. com to purchase your copy of the first book in the Davenports series: The Davenports: A Battle of Wills. Finally! Not too much longer until all my followers are able to return to the epic world of corruption, greed, power and the tormented love affair between Alessandra Davenport and Steven Kane.
Until next time,
Happy Mara Prose Monday! I pray this finds you safe, well, and comfortably sheltered in place. I imagine these unusual times have many concerned, frightened, and wondering what is to come. But be at peace, we have survived much worse and we will come out of this triumphant as well; but with a new normal way of living! I for one, have enjoyed the social distancing mandates. I enjoy not having strangers stand almost on top of me in lines. I like the quiet and the solitude that this period of time is affording me. Without the added distractions, my mind is clear to focus on doing more of what I love to do…write & create!
And while solitude is great, I highly advise using this time to really connect with your loved ones. I am really enjoying my happy hour zoom chats with family and friends. It has allowed us to stay connected more often and see each other frequently, even if it is virtually. The first two weeks from working at home was an adjustment, but it is now a welcome break from the constant interruptions at the office. I find myself at peace and able to freely concentrate on challenging tasks. If I do not want to be disturbed, then I can simply go on do not disturb and zone out to my work. It is a wonderful change!! I am also able to stick to a better diet and regular workout routine. For me , this quarantine has been the welcomed sabbatical that I needed but my heart, prayers and love go out to all who have been tragically affected by this virus and the necessary safety precautions that have been put in place for the greater good.
Please take some time to watch Pastor Steven Furtick’s sermon “Looking Forward to Normal”. It will give you a new perspective about our current state of affairs, and hopefully encourage everyone to really focus on what is truly important.
Now, on to the fun stuff! Let’s catch up on all things Mara Prose 🙂 As usual, I have been very busy growing, learning and developing new content. Let’s begin…
I am proud to announce that I am a new member of the writer’s room for the upcoming television show ‘Strange Places’. I want to give a warm shout out of thanks and appreciation to my mentor/director/producer Andy Rodriguez – McCradic. I am so grateful that he saw so much potential in my writing and invited me without reservation to work alongside so many very talented writers. I have never written a teleplay, but I am learning a lot very quickly and enjoying the exhilarating feeling of bringing to life what I feel is going to be an exceptionally entertaining television series.
MARA PROSE VIRTUAL BOOK CLUB
If you are not a member of my book club on Facebook, I hope you will reconsider your status and join us in our new format. I am always playing around with different ideas to keep the book club new, fresh and interesting. We were a virtual group long before Covind-19 and the new rise in popularity of Zoom calls. The new format is to vote every three months on a new genre, and choose any book from the winning genre to read. Yes, each reader chooses a book that most appeals to them! From that point, instead of having only 30 days to read the book, our members will now have 90 days to complete their selection. Time gets away from us all, and it is not always feasible to complete a book within 30 days for most, so I decided to allow more time to thoroughly enjoy each selection in the hopes that people will be able to more actively engage in the group. After the 90 days, we will have a scheduled Zoom chat and whoever wants to share and discuss their chosen book, they are welcome to do so. If not, others can simply listen into the call. We welcome everyone! Our current winning genre is History which includes Historical Fiction, and our upcoming Zoom chat will be held on my birthday, Sunday May 17th, 2020. The time is TBD.
THE DAVENPORTS: CRESCENDO (BOOK 2)
For all you Davenport fans, book 2 in the series will go on sale at Barnes and Noble and Amazon on my birthday, Sunday, May 17th, 2020! Check out the newly created book trailer and if you have not done so, please visit my blog http://www.maraprose.blog and click on ‘The Davenport Series’ to read the free prologues for Book 1 and Book 2.
Will Alessandra and Steven continue their love affair? How is Makhail fairing after the Norway explosion? Who was really the master mind behind the explosion that shifted the power of control in Davenport Industries? You will have to purchase the upcoming book to find out more!
THE MARA PROSE PODCAST – PROSEY’S CORNER IS NOW ON SPOTIFY!
Despite our current season 3 being temporarily on pause, I am so very proud to announce that we have made it to Spotify for your listening pleasure. Please be sure to follow us on Spotify and listen to our 1st episode of Season 3. We will be returning on, you guessed it, Sunday, May 17th 2020. (Catching onto the date theme yet? LOL)
I am also in the process of developing new plans for my currently stagnant writing group, the Author Mara Prose Writing Group, on Facebook. Although my plate is overflowing, I still continue to make a lot of progress on my upcoming romantic comedy, The Queen of Marriage. Unfortunately, it does not have a release date as of yet, but I hope to have it on the market before the end of 2020. We at Texas Ego Films, also have some exciting news about our upcoming movie, Warlock, that I cannot announce just yet but as soon as I can, my Prosers will be the first to know!!
As always, I cannot thank my Prosers enough. When I actually commit all this to paper, I am amazed at how far I have come and I owe it all to the many, many individuals who continue to support me, believe in me and all things Mara Prose. I thank God for this blessed gift that I am able to share with the world.
Until next time,
I initially blogged this in 2017. I am currently taking time to self reflect on everything I have ever written and following it up in 2020. It is nice to see how far you have come because it helps you navigate where you want to go. A lot of people self reflect, but they reflect at the surface. Many people claim to reflect, but they do not take the necessary actions to make the needed changes to progress in their life. I sympathize with them because it is not easy admitting to all your flaws, accepting when you are wrong and acknowledging that you have so many areas that need improvement in your life.
Facing the Uniqueness of Me
There came a point in my life where a light bulb went off inside my head and I suddenly began to see myself for who I truly am and not who I have pretended to be. No one really wants to admit to themselves that they haven’t always been the most likeable person, least of all a person like me who is very set in her ways. Yet, it was time for me to grow; I mean really grow and evolve so much more than I ever have in the past.
I really like this Mara that everyone is witnessing these days. I fall in love with her more and more everyday. I am so protective of this version of myself , that any type of compromise is viewed as a detriment and threat.
Why do I like her so much? Because she is calmer, more secure, more focused and more selfless. She doesn’t mind sharing her big heart with others. She stopped being a braggart and pompous ass and actually just started enjoying her life more quietly. She listens more than she speaks and she empathizes more than she judges.
She has no qualms about admitting her faults and working to correct them. She finally realizes that she creates her own happiness; although it is still a struggle to keep this at play. This Mara knows when to take a step back, analyze, reassess and then proceed with caution (the former Mara rushed into everything). She is working on being more of a champion for herself as opposed to her own worst critic.
There is so much more but I think you get the just of it. I am just an all around better person. I see so much beauty in myself and in my life. When I initially wrote this, I felt like I was still a butterfly emerging from its cocoon. Well, I have emerged and I am beautiful butterfly who has found her wings and happily soaring to new heights. The point is I accept the Uniqueness of Me.
Until next time,
Happy Mara Prose Monday!! I took the time to revamp one of my older blogger posts as it still remains so relevant in this day and age.
A family member once told me that I’m going to die alone, with no one to miss me but my children; and maybe not even them. I can laugh at this absurd statement now; especially since this person is on their third marriage. I think I’d rather be alone as opposed to leaving a trail of failed marriages and multiple baby mommas as my legacy.
At some point in our lives, it is beneficial to be alone. There are simply periods of growth that need to take place that require solitude. Our world is overly opinionated and judgmental, and it’s easy to feel as if you need to adhere to the fantasy that society tries to sell us on the necessity of relationships and marriage.
I’ve always needed more space and time than the usual person. I like to go my own way and forge my own path. It is during these times that I’m afforded the true luxury of learning, growing and self-reflecting. I accepted long ago that I’m not cut from the same cloth as most but there were many years where I felt I should assimilate with the masses and live the so-called American dream. I find convention stifling and I do not believe in fairy tales (but I do enjoy watching them, LOL). However, in my solitude, I have been able to accomplish sooooooo much; and the best is yet to come.
Solitude can bring a sense of peace and I can testify to that. I have come into my own and I am able to stand firm in my principles. You feel free and uninhibited. You don’t have anyone to explain yourself to, you can just be whoever you are mean to be. It’s a time where you can solely focus on self improvement. There’s no pressure or compromises to be made, you can live life on your own terms.
I find it amusing when people try to shame those who really enjoy being single. I have even had some men try to guilt trip me into dating them, which I must say is bizarre. And it is sad when I have encountered women who do not respect the decision to be single and try to push you into the dating scene.
Self love, care and acceptance deserve more emphasis in our lives. Think about that the next time you have people like the ones I have encountered who try and make you feel as if there is something wrong with you for valuing your own identity and being strong enough in self to determine and follow the path that is truly best for you.
Until next time,
Author Mara Prose
I had an amazing show planned this past Saturday with David Watts and my team members from Onstage Plus, LLC. However, there were embarrassing technical difficulties that forced me to end the show abruptly. This, combined with several other issues Nicky and I have been experiencing with Blog Talk Radio, led me to make the decision to convert Prosey’s Corner into a podcast; a decision that I feel was long overdue.
Prosey’s Corner is now hosted by Squadcast, and will be distributed by Buzzsprout, https://maraprose.buzzsprout.com. Each show will run for 30 minutes and will be available on Spotify, Apple iTunes, Google and iHeartRadio. You will also be able to listen to the episodes via my website, www.maraprose.blog. David and Onstage’s show will air Monday, March 23rd, and I am currently in the process of lining up some great shows with some amazingly talented individuals that I know everyone is going to enjoy.
In regards to Book 2 of The Davenports series, I have decided it will be released on my birthday, May 17th, 2020; just as I re-released Book 1: A Battle of Wills last year on my birthday! My editor and I both came up with the awesome idea of having an annual tradition of releasing a new Davenport installment each year on my birthday. I realize now that The Davenports will go well beyond a trilogy, so let the tradition begin!
Mara Prose Mondays are also returning to their original roots. I recently completed the bible plan, Dangerous Prayers. The 7-day bible plan from Life Church Pastor Craig Groeschel’s book, Dangerous Prayers, dares you to pray dangerously, because following Jesus was never meant to be safe. It was this bible plan that lead me to acknowledge that God has blessed me with everything I have been praying for over the past three years. It was time to not ask for anything more, and ask Him what could I do for the kingdom of God. I prayed for God to use me, even if that entailed taking some things away from me. It is a scary prayer but it also felt good to be able to sincerely be open to whatever God calls me to do next.
It came to me clear as day that my blog needs to return to it’s transparent nature; full of testimonies that I started sharing with my followers 8 years ago. It is time to take the focus off of self promotion only, and show the very human side of Mara Prose again. I have been very quiet over the past couple of years and avoided really engaging with my Prosers like I did in the beginning. In a world so paralyzed with fear of the offense, I want to lead by example, stand for something and encourage a return to integrity, strong values and morals.
Things are changing so rapidly for the Mara Prose brand, and I hope my Prosers are enjoying the ride as much as I am. If you believe in me and my work, please share my blog, share the podcasts, buy my books, and leave reviews – these simple actions are invaluable for where I am taking Mara Prose.
Until next time!
~ Mara Prose
Happy Mara Prose Monday! I have some exciting developments to announce. First and foremost, book one of the Davenports series: A Battle of Wills will be available for purchase on Barnes & Noble within the next 72 hours. In honor of this momentous occasion, I developed a new book trailer; check it out below.
Nicky and I are also excited about welcoming my Onstage Plus family to our show this Saturday, 11am to 12p CST and I have also debuted a brand new logo for the show.
Our first special guest is none other than the partner, creator and visionary David Watts, who is at the helm of this magnificent venture. He will be discussing how Onstage Plus came to be and what his vision is for the company. We also host a wide range of talent within our Onstage family, and David will be taking the time to personally introduce each one of them on our Saturday show and we will hear all about the talents that they bring to this initiative.
We are anticipating a highly successful 2020 filled with live concerts, masterclasses, a home shopping network and a subscription movie/tv streaming service!! Onstage Plus will also cover several high profile events as media press and will be sharing those events via our subscription service. I’m so proud to be a producer and content creator for this fabulous network!!!
David Watts was born and raised in Buffalo, New York. His mother worked to put herself through school and became a registered nurse with supplemental assistance. It was her drive and determination that fostered David’s ‘anything is possible‘ outlook on life. It is because of his mother’s strength that he has always highly regarded and respected the strength of black women.
David moved to California when he was 12 years old, and entered into the entertainment industry at the ripe age of 19. He began his career as a production assistant, and worked his way up to the marketing and branding department of an independent film company in Oakland, California. From there he went on to receive his bachelors degree in marketing with a minor in psychology. He is currently working on his PhD in Naturopathic Medicine.
David has spent many years working with A-list celebrities, and prides himself on being able to quickly identify future stars in the making. He has always worked hard to inspire others to work to achieve their dreams at all costs, and loves to mentor upcoming A-listers. He was once told by the motivational speaker Les Brown, that whenever he needed a dose of positivity, he would view David’s inspirational videos to help him refocus. David has also worked with several top athletes and sport executives from all over the world.
These days, David dedicates all his time to ONSTAGE PLUS, a global education and entertainment platform, based in Oakland, California. When he is not making moves in the entertainment industry, he spends quality time with his beautiful wife of 30 years and his five children – two daughters and three sons. David was told by his great grandmother to: ‘Leave this world a little better than you found it.’ And that is the mission statement that he applies to his daily life!
Please make plans to tune into Prosey’s Corner this Saturday, February 15th by calling our guest line 914-219-0898 or visiting https://maraprose.buzzsprout.com
Until next time,
In fond memory of Kobe and Gianna Bryant, John, Keri and Alyssa Altobelli, Christina Mauser, Sarah and Payton Chester, Ara Zobayan. May they Rest in Heaven and may their legacies live into infinity.
By Anne Bronte
Farewell to Thee! But not farewell
To all my fondest thoughts of Thee;
Within my heart they still shall dwell
And they shall cheer and comfort me.
Life seems more sweet that Thou didst live
And men more true Thou wert one;
Nothing is lost that Thou didst give,
Nothing destroyed that Thou hast done.